It’s my birthday! Level 37! DING!

It’s that time of the year again when a year of hard gridning finally pays off and you level up! As of today I’m now level 37! Damn I’m starting to get really old! One foot in the grave! Haha. Well perhaps not quite.

Has some friends over last weekend to celibrate a bit early, it was fun and I enjoyed it. Got some gifts too. I now finally have the Black Ranger from the Power Rangers Lightning Collection in my…. Collection. >_>
With Zack in my time I now have the 5 OG Power Rangers, I never had them all even as a child, so this feels great! And Green Ranger will probably be landing in January.

Here they are! The original 5! All in their boxes! They had never been out of the box before, but now with them being together, it’s time to set them free!

Here they are in battleposes and ready to kick evils butt!

And while I don’t have that many bad guys, Lord Zedd, Lord Drakkon and Goldar will all put the Rangers to the test! (I really want Mesogog and a seperate Rita figure!)

I’m so happy with this and it’s a fantastic gift. Zack was also a bit rare and hard to find, so I’m super happy I got him as a gift from my friends. Thanks to my good buddy to posed all the figures for me, I’m not all that good at getting them in the poses I want.
I also got a giftcard from another friend, so now I can get a PlayStation 5 game almost free, so that’s very appriciated. Or I’ll use it on the PS5 to get it a bit cheaper, either way I’m very greatful for that. Thank you. :)

And of course I’ve bought something for myself too. It just so happened that this game released today, so it was the perfect gift to give myself.

Can’t wait (yes I can) to play this one. The last game in the Trails of Cold Steel saga. But I’m not so sure I want to start a long JRPG just 2½ weeks before I’m getting my PlayStation 5. Will save it for later and find something else to play for now.

Tags: Birthday, Games, Level up, Photos, PlayStation 5, Power Rangers, PS5

I’m almost at level 32!

I don’t know why, but lately everything just seems so bleak. I have it pretty good right now, but still I can’t seem to be happy. I’m just constantly being held back and drawn back to those older dark times. If I just could let go and forget, I would! It’s not that easy, people who has never experienced depression can’t understand this feeling. It’s not so easy to just, hey get a grip. So if you have comments like that, keep them to yourself. You are helping no one.
I hate feeling like this, I wonder if it’s because I hate myself? I hate what I am. I want to loose weight and get fit, but the motivation leaves me as soon as I get it. I hate my body, I hate it for my psoriasis, but mostly I hate that I can’t get anything done. Like with the motivation, I wish I could hold on to it and get something done. I feel so apathetic at times, I just lie and stare into a wall of the roof instead of doing something productive.

Well at least I got some of that out of head, tomorrow will surely bring some more fun. My work is arranging a bowling activity for us workers, so I’m going to that. But I’m not bowling tomorrow, it still hurts a bit from my operation. So I’ll be sitting it out, but it’s just fun to get out and hey! We get free good, so I can’t complain about that. When I get home I’m going to sit down and watch Sony’s press conference that they are having tomorrow, so don’t spoil anything for me, okay?

And like all or at least most gamers know, when we talk about level up it’s of course a birthday we are talking about. And mine is just around the corner, it’s my birthday tomorrow too. I will probably not be celebrating it, but then again I’d like to do something with my friends. But I’m not sure.
Last year was probably the best birthday in ages and I received one of my most precious belongings. you can read it here. That was also the first time in a very long time, I haven’t hated a birthday. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t dislike getting older. It’s just that birthdays for me has never been especially happy, same with Christmas. So that’s why I really don’t care about them.
So we’ll see what happens, but for now I think I’ll just go to bed or something.

Tags: Birthday, Bowling, Depression, Disappointing, Games, Level up, Rant, Sony, Yazuka